Love of My Life

I don't remember what I was wearing when I met the love of my life but today I'm wearing my cream, blue, and orange Dr. Seuss shirt, dark jeans, and matching inspirational wristbands (God rocks, Courage, and Pray First).  So it's the second week of school and I'm driving to campus, trying to figure out where my week went. I had to admit, I should have asked him for help during the first week on how to optimize my time. He's so great at it and I'm so...not. So asked and of course he said he'd help me. This happened by me apologizing for being stubborn, asking for forgiveness for being prideful, and confess that I needed his help. Oh he was just waiting on me to ask the entire time. He loves me more than words can describe and would do anything for me. I'm so grateful to have him in my like because frankly, I don't deserve him. He has loved me through all my mistakes, faults, and when I've turned my back on him. Even though at times I've been unfaithful, he still loves me and CHOOSES to be with me. He's always take our vows so seriously, even when I haven't... But this time I've resolved to do better. However, unlike the many times before that I "made up my mind" this time it was real and I've been don't better. We spend more time together and talk more. It's like getting to know him all over again and myself too but in a way that seems so much deeper. A way that seems genuine.

I ask for his help more often instead of shutting him out and trying to figure things out on my own. I sing more -> (Yeah not random. Apparently he loves it when I sing to him from my heart even though I'm not the best at it.) I'm more open about being myself around him. I talk about him a lot more. It shocked me that some people didn't know we were in such a committed relationship! It truly is by God's grace that he's with me! And you know what? I LOVE HIM TOO! I decided to get over this "I'm not good enough" pity party I've been having the past few years. He's not focusing on all that so why should I. I'm going to focus on the positive things about me and let God help me grow through the rest. My love is always giving me godly instructions on how to grow too. He corrects in love when I'm wrong too. Unlike before however, I'm going to be listening and applying. We've have our bumps, trials, and sorrows but the joy of being with him outweighs them all by an immeasurable amount. I don't even want to imagine my life without him and thankfully I won't ever have to. No, I'm not being cocky by believing someone so amazingly wonderful wouldn't leave me. He gave me his word that he would never leave me or turn his back on me. Yes, he can be trusted to keep his word. He never lies and always keeps his word. Yep, He's perfect. He's Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. You should call Him sometime and ask, I'm sure He would love to discuss this with you.